On the way back home after watching the movie Star Wars: The Force Awakens, the antennae of my head caught few thoughts that I wanted to write down. The thought that why don’t I study daily. What can I do to make myself study every day. First of all I believe there are 2 kinds of people in this world. First who are happy with their career choices and second who aren’t. I belong to 2nd kind. Well, I was not thinking this because I was regretting watching Star Wars. Star Wars was awesome, by the way.
So I started thinking that what activities do I do every day from which I can learn something and can apply those techniques studies. I thought for a while and found nothing. That was shocking to me. Well, I poop daily but that’s because I get pressure every morning naturally. I can’t get that natural pressure for studies. I eat, drink, sleep daily all because of natural pressure. Now I am walking back home on foot and not by auto because this would keep me healthy a bit. There’s no natural pressure here. But after a while I realized that I am also walking home because I can save little money. If I had to pay for walking and auto was free, I don’t suppose I’d walk. So, now walking may give this short term health benefit, or maybe not, but this is useless. Same goes with studies. I sometimes study because of exam or interview pressure and think that I am studying for future, but in reality these short terms rarely do me any good. I am looking for something that I do daily to co-relate to studies. I go to office because if I won’t, I won’t be paid. I wonder if we are any different from robots. Robots are programmed or forced to do specific task same as we do tasks that are forced upon us by nature or someone else.
Finally I found something that I do daily which I believe is not forced upon by anyone and I still do it each and every day, that’s brushing my teeth. Well, I know I don’t shower daily in winters, which is gross but what can I say. Robots don’t shower at all. Lol. So, I rarely miss brushing my teeth like once or twice a year. Now if I found out the recipe for brushing daily then maybe I can also apply same technique to study daily. If I don’t brush my teeth then I don’t think it’d matter but I still do it. Why? Long term goal of brushing my teeth daily is to keep my teeth healthy. Short term goal, I feel little fresh after brushing. But do I ever think that I am brushing my teeth because I wanna keep my teeth healthy in a long run? No. Do I ever think that I am gonna feel much fresh after brushing? No. I just do this every day without thinking anything. How can I do the same with studies, that is study every day without even thinking anything. So, I conclude that I brush because it’s my habit. I won’t feel good somehow if I don’t brush. I feel like something is missing. It’s because I am habituated to it. Habit – Now it’s a whole different topic all over.
How did I become habituated to brushing my teeth? In the beginning parents, elders forced us. Then taught us the long and short term benefits. Then after a while I didn’t need anyone’s guidance. Well, I can do same with studies. After all, mind is more important than teeth. Keeping it sharp and shiny is more important. So, let me set long term goal to study every day to keep my mind sharp and updated. No one likes to be told that we forgot even basics after 3 to 5 or more years of experience. I wanna be sharp and good and updated. Money, fame, status are not worth keeping as long term goals for studies. So at first I might have to force myself to study but just half an hour or an hour of studies every day should do it. For short term goal, I am gonna set to feel better just like brushing my teeth.
Another thing that I can learn from brushing that I can apply in studies is that I need to have something to restrain from in case I do not study. If I don’t brush my teeth then I keep any food away from my mouth until then. So, for studies I am gonna restrain myself from using internet for personal purpose on phone or PC. Now a days, urge to use internet, or to be precise whatsapp and facebook has become as important for mind as food for stomach. First thing I do when I wake up is pick up the phone to look for time, and then I look for wahtsapp messages, then facebook then some other videos posted on facebook and it doesn’t stop until I realize I am too late. Now onwards I will not turn on my internet until I brush up my mind. I didn’t know brushing my teeth could teach me so many things.
Now, there is one conflict in my mind that I don’t wanna be just some normal people. I wanna work towards becoming great person. Great people don’t work one hour daily. They work hard for so many hours every day. But that’s just ridiculous to set something so high from the beginning. I should learn to take baby steps first. And great people never work like robots, like I do. They do something they like doing, something they are passionate about. They would do it even for free for as much long as they can. This mystery of finding passion is not solved by me yet but I think that studying for an hour just for the sake of it is one step closer towards finding passion. Until now I had nothing but brushing my teeth that could differentiate me from robot. Whereas one thing common in all great people is that they do what they are passionate about, what they like. I don’t do anything daily that I like. I do physical work out for few months and then stop. There is literally nothing that I do daily that I like. May be studies will be my first step towards taking control of my life. I know It’s ridiculous to make a 24*7 routine and try following it. It’s impossible to do. Human mind is a free entity. It needs free space to wander around. All we can do is control it for a few minutes and that’s it. So, I am gonna start daily meditation as well because I’m not gonna leave anything to chance. If I can control my mind whenever I can, I’m gonna do it. It’s not possible to even control for all the time. So, best possible thing for my mind I can do is give it a good environment. I am gonna keep my mind healthy, free of any junk. So that even if it wanders around, it doesn’t find any bad shit to ruin my mental health.
One thing that I am looking for is my passion which should be right in front of my eyes, that can be found by taking control of my life. I’m gonna start doing what I like doing and what’s important for my future without anyone’s or nature’s pressure. I will study, I will work out, I will meditate because I want to do it. No other reason or pressure. Hopefully, these will lead me to gain so much courage to take up something that I will love doing for longer hours everyday of my life.